I was sexually abused by my father as a child, and struggled with self-injury for six years. I wanted nothing more but to die, because I saw myself as worthless dirt, who didn't deserve to live. I saw myself as someone who couldn't do anything right and just kept going deeper and deeper into the pit of darkness and despair with no hope whatsoever. By the end of six years, I was cut up, bound up, and broke up by the chains of self-injury and my past, and then God happened.
God has worked through Teen Challenge to show me who I am in Him. I am a daughter of the king, righteous and holy, a new creation, part of the true vine, and a channel of Christ's life. I am deeply loved by God.... How wonderful is His love. His deep love, grace, and mercy amazes me...
I have my life back. I have forgiven my father after doing "Committed to Freedom," and that has freed me the most... the other thing, is renewal of mind. Anytime that I have a bad foreboding or thought come in my mind, I can cast it down now, and speak the truth. Then that devil runs away with his tail between his legs. he has no control over me anymore!
I started off in San Antonio, then got transferred to Corpus Christi after relapsing, and then they offered me to come to Houston, because my family is here. My Mom lives in a nursing home. Her dementia is gone completely, and her heart is stable. My brother who was agnostic, is now going to church! and I am just free. just so at peace now, and it is all God. He brought life to my spirit!
I am now an intern!!!!!! I am the music director, assistant to the choir director in the choir office, and do choir practices. I also lead the praise and worship here. This has been my dream since I was a little girl and even went to college as a music major, but I gave it up to pursue ministry. And God has shown me where my music fits into ministry!!!!!!!!!! I am so free now... I have a life. I have worth. And it is in Jesus. I can have it no other way!